St Thomas’s doubt gave way to God’s mercy. That’s a truth worth remembering because all of us at one point in our lives have or will doubt as St. Thomas did.
We too have doubted that Jesus resurrected when we fail to love God and neighbor as He loves us. I certainly did when I attended religious services out of obligation not out of love for Him. When I judged others as the Pharisee did in the temple (cf. Luke 18:9-14). When I abandoned my faith because God did not respond as I wanted. I too have said: “I do not believe it until I see it with my own eyes” (cf. John 20:24).
Doubt in God appears to be an irreconcilable act with God. However, the opposite is true. Our doubts are a cry for God to come into our lives. They are an invitation to for Him to heal our brokenness. For it is in our vulnerability when we find Jesus’ mercy. It is in our doubts when Jesus holds our hand and gently guides it into his wound. Then, he tells us: “Do not doubt but believe” (John 20:27). It is our doubts that we like Thomas find God’s mercy.
Noticed the “St” in front of Thomas’ name. How could it be that a person who doubted the Resurrection is also a saint? The answer: God’s mercy. “God is love” (1 John 4;8). He forgives our offenses. That is the good news for us today. For we too have or will act like Thomas and so will God toward us.
Pax et Bonum