“Teach me to do your will for you, O Lord, are my God. Let your good spirit guide me in ways that are level and smooth.” (Psalm 143:10)
In the last few days, I have struggled to write this blog. I have not felt moved to evangelize. It is an admission that I am unafraid to make, because during this time I have continued to pray to God to guide me; I have held on to my faith.
It is difficult at times to live our life in Christ, but it is a struggle we should embrace with determination and comfort for “when your faith is tested this makes for endurance…so that you may be fully mature and lacking in nothing.” (James 1:4)
In the past, I left the little things get between God and me. I erected a wall built by inadequate faith. This was in part due to my fear of losing the earthly things that brought me pleasure, comfort and security; however, the main reason was that I would become discouraged and I stayed away from God. Once, I reconnected with him through prayer, Eucharist and charity, I gained a renewed perspective in life; that to struggle is human and divine; both requiring Christ’s intercession. I may retreat, but I don’t run away.
Now, when I struggle instead of building a wall, I use my trials as stepping stones to God with Christ as the foundation because he said: “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.” (John 14:6) Instead of getting discouraged, I learned to rejoice in the Lord (Philippians 4:4) even when it is not easy to do so. Instead of reverting to my old ways, I focus on the new me for “whoever is in Christ is a new creation; the old things have passed away.” (2 Corinthians 5:17).
My trials will always be there, but by God’s grace so too will be the Holy Spirit.
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